Tonight I Wanna Cry - Keith Urban

Poof poof poof!!!
What happened today???

I have NO IDEA...

"3 rows of chocolate bar had been found missing."

Who eat it?!


ME... =(

I'm sorry but I'm just stressed.

I've been eating non stop today...seriously...


Nitez. I wanna have a sweet dream.

Hard Time Hard Day Hard Feelings

I thought.... I thought..... I'd forgotten him.
But I did not. Sigh~ Is it good or bad leh?

I had a hard time this year.
And that is why I don't wish to jail myself again!!!
So that leads to a hope, a hope of mine to transfer to another school ley.

Mom agreed yesterday and she's quite happy with it.
Unfortunately, today when I asked her how and where to apply it, she disappointed me. =(
It's like there's no more hope for me.

I'm finding a bus or van or anything just vehicle which can fetch me to the school in the morning!!!
No matter what I must transfer~~ T.T help...

IMMATURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Let me say this!
"I HATE IMMATURE GUYS!!!!"

He always talk to himself in the class. (omg?)
Just now he went to the middle of the road and sat. (omfg?)
No one bother him but he still can laugh. (wth?)
He always thought girls will get attracted to his not funny and idiot jokes. (wtf?)

Today he finally has companions in class.
Yet, he is still SS-ing.

Really distracting you know....

Immature immature immature!!!

好心没好报

我终于深深明白了这句的意思——好心没好报！

我想帮一个朋友
可是呢，我要被几个人骂得臭头？
一个个含血喷人

那请问他们骂我，又有什么目的？
那我无言

突然间跑来一个你不认识的人来揍你一拳，你知道那种感觉吗？

我纯心只是想帮我朋友
却没想到这些事情会发生
真是太不讲理了！！！

My Fire Extinguisher Is By Scolding Her Back!

I just hang up the phone call.
I feel much more better now.

"She" is tooo over.
We did nothing wrong and suddenly get scolded by her? Wtf.
I'M SO INNOCENT.o.o"
Mind your own business la.

So fire.

Wanna mess with us? Think again.

FRUSTTTTTTTT

I'M SO DAMN FRUSTRATED NOW!

Idiot connection! Idiot! Idiot!!!! Gah!!!
When is the streamyx gonna be able to apply?!!

What The *tut* !!!

And can't you "guys" talk nicer?!
Cut off the NOOB!!!
*tut* off MAN!!

And I seriously hate hackers! Or any kill stealer!

FRUSTRATED!!!!!!!

I'm really tired of quarreling with you. =.="
If you do see this and you know it's you, please la, be more gentlemen?
You truly made me talk so rude now. Geez.
And you're the first I scold wtf to. Paiseh.
I can't really control my feelings when you tease me EHEM EHEM.

How you treat me is how I will treat you back.
Like the force you applied to something is the force you will gain back?



OFF OFF.
Tomorrow gotta tuition for the whole day.
Time to clear my mind now.

It's About Something Something

As they say all PMR candidates have to take the slip.
So there I am, in the school compound today.

My angka giliran : BA105K019 =D (well of the smiley)

Teacher said my class is taking the long long dewan class. Woohoo.

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And do you want me to tell my true feelings?
I hate my classmates. Only some. Especially those brainless, useless, idiot people.

Want to know why?
Because I hate how they act in the class.
Some are just having fun. Fine.

But some are really troublesome and hatred between each other.
That, INTRUDER I call.

Don't act like a girl. Throw away what you're grabbing in your hand all the time.
Act like you're arif class student. Don't creat unnecessary syndromes for our class.
Don't act like as if you're a gangster!!!

Please, don't brain wash good guys.
You're the odd one then fine, don't try to convince people to accomplice together with you.
You're a chicken.
Once get caught, RUN!! Chicken-ing out. Zzz.
Even the afternoon class teacher also scared? Socializing!! Should have take a video of that.

Don't think that teasing me is a very good job. Let me tell you, at least my drawing is better than yours.
I think you don't even know what is drawing. Not even a square you can draw. Not even a line. Not even a dot?

Throwing rubbish to my place? Believe me, when you really get into my nerves, I'll sumbat the rubbish in your smelly mouth.(sry 4 da rojak)

You destroy, destroyed and are destroying our class!!!
It's all your good job ruining our class. Not even one teacher like our class now. Because of you.
No use throwing words to you. But at least be more considerate?

Don't make me curse you again because I already did.
You already ruin a person. A nice person in my class.
Without you, there's no dirt in our class photo. It made me a little bit unsatisfied with you inside the photo shoot.

Wow he got facebook profile! But I heard, you don't even know what is that.
Click the mouse, control it. Know how? Admit it.

There's still a turning back. But if you want to go forward, it will tilt even more. Then it's even harder to turn back.

He is not famous. He is infamous. Just like Mr. Hyde.

Don't mess, INTRUDER!

Don't blame me for that.
It's already a very big matter and teacher is not taking any action. Is it fair?!

kanasai.

I Insist .

Today they return SPBT book lur...
I think it's very troublesome so I didn't borrow~
It's a good decision if you do not borrow!
If you borrow, you still need to ensure the book is 100% in good condition.
Plus you need to wrap it if the books are "naked".
So "ma huan"...
Or when you borrow, you get books that are already being operated and not stitched.
Zzz so I won't borrow at all.


BTW, thanks to eGin for borrowing me her books! haha.
Your books are still nice I can say. I never conteng 1 arh~
Especially the PJ book. lol.

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I want to go Genting!!!
But no teacher is going so how am I suppose to make sure I'm secured there?
My mom sure won't let me to go if like that. Sobx.
I really wanna go ler.....T.T

For my mom, I'm still a kid. (>.<)
So...I can't go d~ Sorry guys~~
But if you find one teacher, I would definitely go!!!

That's impossible. =(

SUFFER

It's weird that I can't sleep well these few days...

What's going on with me???

And I just keep on feeling the headache especially when I close my eyes. Which is when I'm sleeping!!! ARGH!!! Even if I open my eyes wide also the same thing. But! If I keep my eyes half closed then it would be better....I think. Does it make any sense??>.<

Sighh.........

I just want to have a good sleep.

Perhaps you may sing me a song or pamper me with bedtime stories before I sleep.

If not I will use the count sheep method. =>
Have you tried before? If yes, tell me your experience!

If I still can't sleep well, my eye bag is getting darker and darker and worse!!!!!!
I don't want!!! T.T

LAZY PIGGY ME

I cannot be lazy anymore.

Laziness is not going to stay in my soul anymore ok!

Oww man...so sad..
I cannot slack anymore.

No more no more no more lazy anymore ok!

No more...

Yes!!! NO MORE SLACKING!!

No more..T.T

No more!! I said no more!!!

ARgh!!! Feel like killing myself man!!

Why am I as lazy as a pig??

Why am I so lazy??
That's the question!!!

Oww man..!!!

LAZY LAZY LAZY LAZY me.T.T

That's pathetic.

Okay okay so... Can I don't be lazy anymore??

Can...can I force myself not to be lazy anymore??

This is when I get tension when the exam is around the corner..!!

PMR examination is near!!!
So near!!

Just...just...just 1km away from me!!

Another 30 days more, it will be like...1mm?T.T

Holy cow!!!!!!!!!!

So so...how fast is the speed going??

Can I manage to revise the WHOOOOOLE syllabus before it travel up to 1km?

I'm fighting with 8 subjects man!!

8..eight..eight..eight subjects!
Owh man I'm freaking nervous now..

I cannot be lazy anymore..because I'm not a pig!!!
As simple as it!!
I'm not a PIG.

Btw, fill in the blank with "yes" or "no".

"____, I'm a pig."

Okay okay stop crapping!!

Focus...focus on my exam.
No more slacking...can???

Yeah, most important one.
No more entertainment for me.

Anti-computer
Anti-outing
Anti-enjoyment
It's all against my law now.

Don't let them to distract me!! Don't!!

If I just work hard for only 1 month, it would be worthy!

With hard work, I can exchange a straight As.

Straight!!!

Owh god!!
My brother and sisters are giving me pressure!!!

Bro-straight!!
2nd sis-straight!!
eldest sis-straight!!!

It's driving me insane~

O my gawd!!
If I never manage to get straight As, our family history will be like cacat-ed?

Nonono...that's not gonna happen.
Possible??

Ahh!! All depends on myself.
Whether I want to do it or not!

Yes, I can do it~
Only if I'm not lazie~

Uh uH..pathetic..

pray for mii...><

姐，你在哪里？

为什么姐每次都重视她男朋友多过重视自己的家人？

每一夜，打完工回来，我多么的盼望我们有得聊天。
结果，昨天晚上，她又去到男友那儿了。

他那边很好咩？
他家的整洁，我实在是不能顶。
连坐在地上，我都觉得有点怕怕…

我觉得现在姐的生活就只有打工，爱情…
那家庭呢？


在仔细想一想，姐真的有点过分！
我们的家，不是你的酒店！
要回来就回来；不想回来就不回来吗？

你这一生中最重要的家…都不想要了？

那快结婚呀！
那么你就可以不用每次来回换衣服梳洗了。


那时候吵架，我把我的心里话全都吐出来了。
你还不明白我想要的是什么吗？

我的眼泪也不由自主地流下来了。
我只是想要你抽多点时间跟我们在一起！

不行吗？



不可否认，我都已经习惯没有你的日子。
我习惯了，饭桌上的菜肴，不用留给你；
我习惯了一个人睡；
我习惯了，没有你的存在……

难道你没发觉到我一点都不想理会你吗？
难道你不觉不觉得你所做的一切都太过分了吗？

你不回来过夜，可以！我没问题！
但是，你把你的东西全搬走，才是最好！
不要每天晚上来打扰我睡觉可以吗？

我的心是很痛…很痛…

每次房间都是你弄脏的。可是收拾的人是谁呀？
你有没有考虑过我的感受？

我也知道你对我很好。我当然知道。
你不要说我忘恩负义，是你没有给我机会，让我好好地答谢你。

我已经尽量放松我自己…
但是，每当我看见你离去的背影，我恨不得想把你的东西全都丢去你男朋友的家门口！
你不是很喜欢去那边吗？

每天去人家的家，你不觉得不好意思？
人家的父母当然不会当面表现出来他们不喜欢外人常常去他们家。
这不代表他在心里不会。

就算他父母不介意，你自己也应该反省一下吧？



你们之间也有四、五年的感情了～
但我不希望因为爱情与工作时间的关系，改变了你的生活……

我也不想要你这样子…
没有姐姐在一旁关心我，陪我谈心事，甚至逗我开心……我不习惯。
哎！好矛盾！



我的人生中，好像就缺了一个人。

我们之间的距离，也越来越远……

那以后呢？线都断了吧？
沟通不到了…结果就变成了—陌生人。



真不明白………………

谁可以告诉我，要怎么克服这一关？

I hate myself....
I hate myself when I'm clumsy.
I hate myself when I'm in the DON'T-CARE mode.

I think today it happened for the 5th time in my life.
Oh god.
If you know I'm going to make mistake again, be my reminder please!!
Well, if you have no idea about this, I'll remain it. >.<"

Sigh.......
Why am I so forgetful? Or I'm so damn stubborn that I never learn?
1st lesson. Yes I remember it.
Yet the 1st lesson did not frightened me. I still repeat it again and again and again!
Today! Again!

I feel so sorry to myself, honestly.
I hurt myself. =(

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Well well well......
Chill chill chill........
Chillax chillax chillax.......

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Tarik nafas~~~
Hembus nafas~ Huk!

Okay. Done.

^^

I'm not going to school for two days!
Woohoo!!!

I hope wong will not be dead of boredom at school.
hehe.. She'll be alone in class~
Ms. Lonely~

Teacher is totally not teaching in the class.
Not distributing papers, then boring exercises.
1 hour doing one exercise? What a waste of time!
Rather I spend my time at home and accompany my mom.

She also scared to be alone at home I think!

Gonna write letter to teacher.
Mention the reason- want to study at home.
Haha. Good what.

Since I'm having my personal holiday, Dad is contemplating to bring us to Cameron Highlands!
Errmm..but my holiday is to study not play..
See how things go ba~

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I saw a bug on the wall in my room! What bug is that???


















closer look!















before it flies away.

Facts

What should I say??

Speechless.

About yesterday...

It's totally out of the blue and I'm blue.

Owh yeah.

But luckily I had nge to be my companion.

Hmm...we chatted about life.

Yawn~~~2am only adios to him.

He told me his life is simple and easy.

Stress free.

Wondering if I can be the way he lives now.

As I have so many things to deal with...

He's there, relaxing, playing his bkb.

Me, studies, family, schools, tuitions and my main point FRIENDSHIP.

Sucks alright?

Sometimes if you said or do something which are against them, hah. They will not tell you.

They're back there teasing you. Gossiping you.

Without you knowing about it. Yeah, this is the real world.

I gotta face the fact. I can believe no one now.

But some, they still can joke with you...care of you...

How nice when I were together with them crapping.

Yeah. Dream too much.

What??? I don't really feel I am myself now.

Syndromes, syndromes just like to insult me.

Quarrels, quarrels will I hear at home. That's stressful enough alright?

Like they know everyone's life is going through the same.

I can say I'm different from you.

Yeah. You have a nice family. A perfect family. You have sisters there caring of you. How wonderful....

That doesn't bring you any hard times. But me??? Do I have what you have???

Do you even asked about it??? No. I won't tell you either. To oblige, you're not a good friend though.

No no. I'm not saying about the person you're thinking. You won't know who is that.

This time, I'm really very pressure.

Sometimes I wanted to give up. I want to disappear from this universe. Right now, right here.

In short, to die immediately. To set free myself from suffering. Suffering to death.

But I "delete" all the negative ones. I can't just do whatever I want to do.

Yet another problem came to me.

Because of my clumsiness?

No! It's just that, people always think different from me.

And how am I suppose to know that, they have sensitivity on that???

I'm not a mind reader!!! Like I said before, need not I have curiosity if I am one.

So is it that we're not suit to be friends anymore???

Or I'm the one who is the alien???

You just can't understand my situation, don't you?

We're on the same ship. I'm sitting at the edge. Alone. Loneliness I felt.

I'm not begging for mercy. I just want you to wake me up!

I'm alone. I'm all alone. Don't sing to me "You're Not Alone". Don't let me hear of that song, too.

I'm the odd one.

I'm problematic.

That's it. Problematic.

Plus I'm not a very socializing person.

That worsens my life.

I need comforts.

I need somebody......

I need true friends....to get me through this.

I will try my best.

Perhaps, I will put this aside first.

I wanna concentrate on my studies too.

And why the hell climax happens at this time. Now, it's a bad time for it.

What should I do now?

See that now?? S.O.S.

"Sometimes I just forget, say things I might regret."

Forgive me.

A Fun-filled and Mad and Sad and Guilty one

Fun-filled
Today stayed back at school. 5pm only back to my home sweet home.
It's all because of nathalie and see yin lo. Don wanna let me go back home. Aiyo.
We went for cendol and ABC around the area nearby school compound. By the road side.
Costing me RM1.60 lar yor...pokai.
Later, see yin and I was talking about adrian. And then he showed up himself with dylan.
What a coincidence!!
Haha..we enjoyed chatting a lot.
Nat asked them a few IQ questions and vise versa.
Some are not logical so it's not completely IQ questions.hmm..
LOL and simultaneously feel like crazy and beating them after knowing the answer.ggrrrr...


Mad
Okay. Today morning this matter did not spoiled my mood. Don't know why.
But it did make her speechless. Hah.
I shouted at my friend. Oh gosh. She is the one who is stubborn and made me mad.
She always insist of what she said is correct correct correct. "You're wrong! You're wrong!"
C'mon! I'm bored of it. Not that you know everything. You just pretended that you know everything! You're neither the Almighty. So shuddap.
I said one she said two. Argh!! Don't mess with me or others. Or else you will not want to face the consequences. I know you will not want to. Bitch la your mouth. Zip it. Moron.


Sad
So...disappointed with my performance in my Maths paper.
Sigh. Most of the questions that I got my mark deducted is because of my carelessness.
Sien ah. But that won't be my excuse!!
I will work harder and achieve my aim - 95%!!
Miss Tay I will show you my 95% 1. With doing lots and lots of exercises I'm sure there is no problem. And next time I will re-re-re-re-re-recheck my answers.
I liquid-ed one of my answer and I did not write the answer right away. I left it blank.
Oh gosh. Stupid me.

Second thing :
I'm worried of Kim Ruth.
I heard this matter from see yin just now.
She told us that there is hole on her heart that made her to have difficulty to breathe sometimes. What disease is that? Heart disease probably? I don't know what is it called. Heh..sorry. Just a hole on her heart la ha..
Last time she still can control her condition after taking medicines. But now, not anymore.
The consequences may not be good. T.T
It is getting worse and worse and yet she still don't want to rest at home.
Since she have chosen to come to school, we must appreciate when we still have her now.
No matter what, friends are still friends.
Yes, friends. We're friends.
There are no hatred between us. Yes! But that was before. We forgave you.
Everything is fine now. Join us and play, like last time we used to. Okay?
Don't build a wall between us. If there is, let's crash it! And approach to us. Or you want us to have the first move? Anything you say! We'll talk to you first lah. Deal =D


Guilty
I'm sorry, vivien. If nat and I do hurt your feelings, I'm sorry man.
We did not do it purposely. It's just that everyone has different targets.
I know you can do it better. Wish you good luck. =D